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Sooo I guess I’m not going to see Hub City Stompers In San Jose
No Ride,No cash. totally blows :/

i am however playing show here at a bar downtown.
It’ll be us and a few metal bands
haha we are always so random at these things.

Go check us out on facebook and like us!
and if you don’t then i will unfollow. No, Just kidding. 
I love you guys too much for that :]

i’m pretty fucked up.
I don’t think I’m Picky When It comes to relationships,
I honestly think i’m just afraid of attachment.
I mean why would I want To let Someone Know I care about them?
Everytime I do that I just seem to get used. perhaps they wanted to use me or perhaps they just didn’t know what they wanted at the time.
Either way I just end up getting hopeful and then when things fuck up,
I end up feeling like shit.
I don’t think I’m up for that anymore, But then when Will I be?
I can’t be alone forever. I guess I’d have to take a chance sometime.
I just wish I knew When the right time was. So far I seem to be skipping out
on a few all because of my fear of “commitment” and/ or Lack of Trust towards people. I Hate being confused with feelings and I hate having them.

Day Two: Where you’d like to be in 10 Years?

I don’t even know what I want in life
I don’t even know where I’m Going
or what I want to do.

I guess I just hope to be living somewhere
far away from this town
Alone or whatever,But happy and away from everything.

Or so that’s what I am told.
Bitch, Since when did I have High Standards?
I didn’t even know I had “Standards” to begin with.
Is it really fault I am Attracted to people whom I find interesting?
ehh… then again maybe they are right.
I should just settle For What I can Have :P

Hmm.. I guess that no matter how “badly” i’d like to be
in a relationship with someone or somebody.
I don’t think I could do it.
Ironically because I complain about being alone,
but if there was somebody out there that wanted me back
i’d Run away. I’m not sure why.Myabe for Fear of commitment to that
one person. [even if it’s not serious] Maybe for Fear of Fucking things Up.
I like the chase sometimes.so what if I wanted something so
bad and I end up getting,whatever it is that is so “perfect” to me
and then not want it anymore. it’s like Trying to get somewhere and then not
knowing what to do when you get there?
It’s Happend in the past. Why wouldn’t it happend again?
It doesn’t even make sense and it’s stupid to be afraid of something
that is supposed to make you happy. Maybe deep down i just like being alone.
There must be something wrong with me right? So there it is My Stupid “Confession” I am terrible when it comes to relationships…

7. trying to write music

6. Health concerns. i’m probably gonna die soon haha

5. I need to do something with my life

4. Needing Cash Constantly

3. am i ever going to get my own place and car etc…

2. am i always going to be alone?

1. him.. bleh